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My parents on a day (or night) in September 1962  got jiggy, nine months later I was the result. Why they produced a Cancerian baby I cannot tell you, it always felt like a bit of an odd star sign, an Aries or a Leo star sign would have been a little more exciting, but it wasn’t down to me, I was born a Crab.

Astrology has  been something of a curiosity to me for a long time, it began as a teenager, each day after school I would stop on my  way home to visit my Grandma, she was a crochety old broad,  no airs or graces, a bit of a monster at times, but for some reason she rather liked me and was kind to me. I stopped by each afternoon, to say hello and do the odd chore for her, mainly because she gave me a piece of cake and a cup of tea each time I visited, each time she would add a little whiskey to our  tea, always she said for medicinal purposes, it helped her rheumatism, (for a twelve year old this felt like a great idea), then I would sit with her and read her paper, she always bought the Sun, I pretended not to linger on page 3, ( I always did ) and I would then read her her horoscope out loud and then my own, we would talk about our Stars together for a while. Eva Petulengro was the Astrologer, what rubbish it was. But even now, whilst the Sun is not my preferred reading from time to time I will glance at my  horoscope, and if it says something I like then I may let myself believe in it for a while at least.

I find many traits in the male Cancerian in myself,  I am not particularly comfortable admitting to them.  More than this however the aptness of the sign is bang on for me, at least in recent times. I have most definitely shed my old shell, it didn’t fit me anymore, doing so made me feel vulnerable, naked, but with it   I have found something of the person that hid behind the shell. And I grow a new skin, one that  suits me better, with time and movement it strengthens, little by little.

But my logical side doesn’t like being a crab and so I look for some Astrological alternative, western astrology might not be correct.  I check out my Hindu Astrology, I find out that I am a Jataka, under the ninth Nakshatra. What does that mean exactly? Well  apparently I am serpentine, my  life is a roller coaster ride, I am deprived of an understanding spouse, vulnerable to joint pain and drug addiction. Oh and I can be hysterical.  Well that’s all fine and dandy then isn’t it, perhaps I will stick with being a Crab, or better still being myself.

Taken from http://www.ganeshaspeaks.com

“Jatakas born under the ninth Nakshatra are identified by their serpentine nature, penetrative looks and forceful appearance.. Those born in this star have amazing penetrating eyes, which pierce through others. People born in sign are found to be lean and rude appearance.  A strong lover of independence, they resist and react sharply to anything that remotely challenges their independence. However, the Jatakas of Ashlesha never cheat or grab others property. These people are mostly betrayed by their close relatives and friends while they receive help from unexpected quarters. They are usually deprived of a understanding spouse. Most of the time they shoulder many responsibilities in their family. Their luck is some what come in the form of a serpentine pattern making life a roller coaster rides.  The Jatakas of this Nakshatra are especially vulnerable to joint pains, hysteria, jaundice and drug addiction”.

This is taken from http://zodiac-signs-astrology.com/zodiac-signs/cancer.htm

“Cancer is a mysterious sign, filled with contradictions. They want security and comfort yet seek new adventure. They are very helpful to others yet sometimes can be cranky and indifferent. Cancer has a driving, forceful personality that can be easily hidden beneath a calm, and cool exterior. The crab is Cancer’s ruling animal and it suits them well, they can come out of their shell and fight but they can also hide in their shell or skitter away back into the depths of the ocean. They are very unpredictable. With cancer, there is always something more that meets the eye, for they are always partially hidden behind the shell. They are a have a deep psyche and intuitive mind that is hidden from the world. Cancer is deeply sensitive and easily hurt, this might be why they have their defense shell in place, to avoids being hurt by others. They are nurturers so they surround themselves with people, whom after a while can offend or hurt a cancer without even knowing they did so, therefore Cancer’s protective shell keeps them safe from hurt. They are complex, fragile, unpredictable and temperamental and need constant support and encouragement, more then any other astrology signs, Cancer needs to be needed. When cancer gets the support it needs, it has a tremendous amount to offer in return. When cancer gets offended, they tend to sulk instead of confronting the persons face to face. This needlessly prolongs the pain and suffering. Cancer is very possessive, not just with material possessions but with people as well. Cancer will always want to stay in touch with old friends and anyone who has ever been close to them, because it is easier to maintain a friendship then attempt to learn to trust a new person. It is easier this way for them emotionally. If you befriend a Cancer, you will stay friends for a long time. They have unconditional love and caring more so then any other astrology sign. Cancer are very intuitive. Most of the psychics of the world are Cancer astrology signs. Cancer has a lot of emotional issues to deal with but once they overcome this large hump of shyness and insecurity, there is practically nothing they can’t do. With their strong intuition, sensitivity, powers of observation and intelligence, they will have great success in anything they undertake”.

This is taken from http://zodiac-signs-astrology.com/zodiac-signs/cancer.htm